wow! did i need this to wake me up from my stupor? I have totally no pain – no memory of my guy. He doesn’t matter. He is nothing to me now. My son’s pain is so much more important right now. When I weaken and think that I ‘long for my boyfriend’.. I suddenly [...]
Archive for May, 2008
i feel no pain but my son’s pain
Posted in Uncategorized on May 15, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
my son’s gf left him today
Posted in Uncategorized on May 11, 2008 | 1 Comment »
so she left him. Cried… etc etc… and left him. he is devastated. His pain put mine into perspective. His pain is far more important to me than any pain I have. She gave no reason… just that she does not feel towards him as she did before. He, like me, is constant, loyal, loving, [...]
when.. oh when will this pain go away?
Posted in Uncategorized on May 10, 2008 | 1 Comment »
when will i stop missing you? when will that ache in my heart just vanish? when will i wake up in the morning wanting to wake up and wanting to smile from my heart again? when will i be able to reclaim my heart from you? when will i stop missing you so much?
how could [...]
seduces me
Posted in Uncategorized on May 10, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I don’t care about tomorrow… right here with you is where I want to be…
i want to dance the night away
Posted in alone or lonely, love on May 8, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
who will dance with me? i want to dance the night away… i want to be in a state of oblivion to everything and anything.
i cannot go to a bar or to a dance place.. how stupid that would look.
i want to touch no man and no man to touch me.
but i want to dance… [...]
the man infront of me
Posted in Uncategorized on May 4, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Today, my love, I sat in a restaurant with a man who was doing his best to get my attention, trying to date me. He was talking and talking and asking questions and looking me in th eyes and trying to touch my hand or hold my arm… He spoke of how much he wanted [...]
my theatre.. our theatre..
Posted in alone or lonely, love, sad? on May 4, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Remember darling.. that movie theater that I took you to? it is different from anything we know or have seen.. it is a constant haunt of mine.. with its old, worn out couches and tiny but very geeky ambiance. We slouched in the couches as the lights turned off and held each other as we [...]
lasso the moon
Posted in love on May 4, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Yes… he loved telling me that. He loved telling me how he wanted to ‘lasso the moon’ for me.
Does he know that his ‘lasso’ by mistake went round my neck instead?
the cost of being ‘addicted’ to you…
Posted in love on May 4, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
One of his early messages to me right before we became lovers.. when we were just friends and he was flirting with me. This message was the turning point in our relationship. Following it we became lovers… and it was one of his most rational and refreshing assessments of ‘our situation’ – perhaps I should [...]
places that remind me of you
Posted in love, sad? on May 4, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I bring no one home. I never do. Never did. But I brought you home.. got you in my bed… you sat on my couches.. you planted the bush in my yard.
I drive my car and find little remains of you.. a note here, a paper there of things we did and places we went. [...]
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