do not answer « Like Wine

do not answer

June 22, 2008 by likewine

I emailed him back. I asked him if he ever really loved me. .. as in being IN love with me. I do not want to know the answer.

did you ever
love me?
don’t answer
please:
for yes is but
deception..
and no is but
pure cruelty.

Posted in alone or lonely, love | 3 Comments

on June 22, 2008 at 7:48 pm mp3 istek

That’s very nice…
on June 22, 2008 at 11:46 pm disarminglife

Isn’t wondering worse than knowing? Atleast for me it is. perhaps an answer would help with closure?
on June 23, 2008 at 12:52 am likewine

good question, but you see, I think we all know the answers deep down. It is just a confirmation of the answer that I may be seeking. Which is why I say if the answer is yes, it would be deceptive, because deep down, I know he never really loved me. He needed me, but not loved me.

Closure, I think, is a state of mind. I was almost there… until his email yesterday. It opened up all kinds of conflicting emotions. Some moments I just want to tell him that I love him so very much… others I just don’t even want to hear of him.