I emailed him back. I asked him if he ever really loved me. .. as in being IN love with me. I do not want to know the answer.
did you ever
love me?
don’t answer
please:
for yes is but
deception..
and no is but
pure cruelty.
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do not answer
Posted in alone or lonely, love on June 22, 2008 | 3 Comments »
i want to dance the night away
Posted in alone or lonely, love on May 8, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
who will dance with me? i want to dance the night away… i want to be in a state of oblivion to everything and anything.
i cannot go to a bar or to a dance place.. how stupid that would look.
i want to touch no man and no man to touch me.
but i want to dance… [...]
my theatre.. our theatre..
Posted in alone or lonely, love, sad? on May 4, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Remember darling.. that movie theater that I took you to? it is different from anything we know or have seen.. it is a constant haunt of mine.. with its old, worn out couches and tiny but very geeky ambiance. We slouched in the couches as the lights turned off and held each other as we [...]
lasso the moon
Posted in love on May 4, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Yes… he loved telling me that. He loved telling me how he wanted to ‘lasso the moon’ for me.
Does he know that his ‘lasso’ by mistake went round my neck instead?
the cost of being ‘addicted’ to you…
Posted in love on May 4, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
One of his early messages to me right before we became lovers.. when we were just friends and he was flirting with me. This message was the turning point in our relationship. Following it we became lovers… and it was one of his most rational and refreshing assessments of ‘our situation’ – perhaps I should [...]
places that remind me of you
Posted in love, sad? on May 4, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I bring no one home. I never do. Never did. But I brought you home.. got you in my bed… you sat on my couches.. you planted the bush in my yard.
I drive my car and find little remains of you.. a note here, a paper there of things we did and places we went. [...]
the days i hate you most
Posted in love, sad? on May 4, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
yes, there are those days when I simply hate you. I hate how you crawled into my life and stole my heart and then gave your back to me and walked away. I hate the feeling that I have been taken advantage of – of my kindness and passion. I hate the empty promises of [...]
i look for you in every face
Posted in love on April 30, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
every man I see… I look for you. I shy away from a memory that is not of you – a desire that does not spring from your touch, a love that does not feel like yours.
I search for you in every man I see. Every face. Does he have your eyes? does he have [...]
are you lonesome tonight?
Posted in alone or lonely, love, sad? on April 29, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
are you thinking of me?
i will not surrender
Posted in alone or lonely, love, sad? on April 16, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
i stare at walls
that do not speak,
at doors
that never open,
at phones
that never ring.
i fend off
feelings of
emptiness…
the void
you left
behind.
i yield
to lonely days
and longer nights.
i resign
to the depth
of solitude
devouring my soul..
my strength
my will to
hang on
to a fragment of memory
to an almost forgotten smile
to a love that never
will be.
i quell
the longing..
missing the divine
beauty
of you…
the richness of my
love
for you.
i [...]
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