only thoughts of you remain

Only thoughts of you remain
In my heart where they have lain,
Perfumed thoughts of you, remaining,
A hid sweetness, in my brain.
Others leave me: all things leave me: You remain.
- Arthur Symons

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i don’t need your memories

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don’t need ‘em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you’ll think of me
And take your cap and leave my sweater
‘Cause we have nothin’ left to weather
In fact I feel a whole lot better
But you’ll think of me, you’ll think of me
Keith Urban:

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if you forget me

By Pablo Neruda:

If You Forget Me
I want you to know
one thing.
You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward [...]

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he emailed me..

and I don’t know what to do or how to respond. What’s surprising to me is that he emailed me on an account that we have never emailed on. Ever. Only this week I began going out and attempting – a very very feeble attempt – at dating. But his image haunts me. Even as [...]

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i feel no pain but my son’s pain

wow! did i need this to wake me up from my stupor? I have totally no pain – no memory of my guy. He doesn’t matter. He is nothing to me now. My son’s pain is so much more important right now. When I weaken and think that I ‘long for my boyfriend’.. I suddenly [...]

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my son’s gf left him today

so she left him. Cried… etc etc… and left him. he is devastated. His pain put mine into perspective. His pain is far more important to me than any pain I have. She gave no reason… just that she does not feel towards him as she did before. He, like me, is constant, loyal, loving, [...]

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when.. oh when will this pain go away?

when will i stop missing you? when will that ache in my heart just vanish? when will i wake up in the morning wanting to wake up and wanting to smile from my heart again? when will i be able to reclaim my heart from you? when will i stop missing you so much?
how could [...]

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seduces me

I don’t care about tomorrow… right here with you is where I want to be…

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the man infront of me

Today, my love, I sat in a restaurant with a man who was doing his best to get my attention, trying to date me. He was talking and talking and asking questions and looking me in th eyes and trying to touch my hand or hold my arm… He spoke of how much he wanted [...]

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his birthday…

has he ever loved me? does it matter for me to know? perhaps it is wiser to stop and to forget. But how do we stop the scenes in our mind – the stories and little bits of inner jokes and words of passion?
And yet, how can I also stop the last email he sent [...]

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